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Mar. 7th, 2026 01:07 am
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Фазиль Искандер.

И нелюди никогда не простят того, что ты — человек.
Эта страна, как огромный завод, где можно ишачить и красть.
Что производит этот завод? Он производит власть.
Власть производит, как ни крути — хочешь, воруй и пей!
Ибо растление душ и есть — прибыль, сверхприбыль властей.

И вещество растленных душ (нация, где твой цвет?)
Власти качают для власти, как из кита спермацет.
Как время крестьянам погоду ловить - самая благодать! -
Как время женщину удержать и время с женщиной рвать,
Так, думаю я, для каждой страны есть исторический миг...

Встань за свободу и стой стоймя! Не устоял - не мужик.
Мы прозевали время свое, прошляпили, протрепав.
В этой стране все зыбко плывет, даже тюремный устав.
Мы припозднились, гоняя дымы, вина, шары, чаи,
Глянул в окно, а там давно гниют, фашизея, свои...

От черного юмора этих вестей можно сойти с ума.
Но безумие новостей здравого жаждет ума!
Сын мой, время уходит мое, твое еще не пришло.
Нет основания полагать, что ты не застанешь зло.

Я каждому встречному в этой стране свободную душу дарил.
И каждый второй (да и первый порой!) мне личную яму рыл.
Наспех, должно быть, рыли они, под свой лилипутский рост.
Я все еще жив и только на лбу линии новых борозд.
— Что это? — Зависть, мой сын, религия всех калек.
И нелюди никогда не простят того, что ты — человек.

Впрочем, довольно… Ошибки отца, сын мой, не повтори!
Свобода — свобода только тогда, когда растет изнутри.
Но я не хочу, чтобы ты продолжал столетнюю эту войну,
Где бочки клевет катит клеврет и жизнь всегда на кону.

Из самого пламени я кричу, но не сочтите за бред,
За выслугу лет Бога прошу сыну белый билет!
Я не прошу за выслугу лет отставку и пенсион.
Белый билет для сына прошу! Не для себя пансион!
Господи, для сына прошу: это тебе по плечу!
Честным, но непричастным войне сына видеть хочу!

Но если честность сама по себе уже невозможна там.
Сын мой, я на другом берегу. Мужчина решает сам.
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I was supposed to finish the February Challenge Stuff I Love: Top Ten Edition by [personal profile] dreamersdare in February, but I'm a fuck up lol
Challenge 3: Make a Top Ten list for your favourite music picks and share what you love about them.

My Top 10 current favourite albums, in no particular order:


1. A Fever You Can't Sweat Out by Panic! At The Disco


It still baffles me that such a groundbreaking album was made by teenagers. At their age, I was partying and getting drunk every week, not producing a quadruple-platinum-certified album lol. I love so many things about it, but if I could choose just one, it would be Ryan’s lyricism. He has such a way with words - it’s mind-blowing. Time to Dance will always be one of my favourite songs, both lyrically and instrumentally. Also, I Write Sins Not Tragedies and its music video hold a special place in my heart - it was one of the first I ever saw on TV (I remember asking my stepbrother the name of “that videoclip where a woman kisses a guy and ends up with smudged lipstick” lmao).

2. Infinity On High by Fall Out Boy

Lyrically, this is one of my favourite FOB albums (THANK YOU, PETE WENTZ). I love that it keeps elements of their earlier works, but also goes beyond that. That's one of the things I most like about the band - they never stay on their comfort zone. This is also why I adore Folie à Deux too (I almost put it on the list). Btw, I have a fond childhood memory attached to IOH. My father had a PS2 with SingStar, which is a karaoke game. One of the songs available was This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race. Needless to say, I was hooked. Patrick's vocals... ugh... I love him.

3. Born This Way by Lady Gaga

11-year-old me was SHOOK when this came out (and very grateful for my mother's lack of English knowledge lol). This is bold, innovative, thought-provoking - basically everything I value when it comes to art. BTW was also crucial for me to accept myself as bisexual. Back then, outside the Little Monster bubble, I had practically no support.

4. The Family Jewels by Marina

Listening to the album when I was a teenager certainly changed my brain chemistry. I remember thinking Marina (then Marina and the Diamonds) was the only person who could truly get me lol. I'm too insecure and have family issues, therefore each song is basically my anthem. Oh No! will always be one of my favourites, since I'm someone who feels like they're the worst, but (sometimes) acts like they're the best.

5. Virgin by Lorde

This album perfectly sums up my struggles with womanhood and adulthood. These past few years, navigating all of that has been tough... I'm a grown woman, but I don't feel like one, ya know? It's refreshing to be able to relate so deeply to someone else's experience. And the fact that Lorde is only a bit older than me, living authentically and putting this raw truth into her music, makes me feel like I’m going to be okay.

6. Splinter by Sneaker Pimps

I’ve been a Chris Corner fangirl for ages, so it’s no surprise Sneaker Pimps are among my favourites. NME’s review of Splinter got it right - the lyrics are “strangely meaningful without saying anything,” and the album is “as compelling as it is claustrophobic.” Most people prefer Kelli Ali’s vocals, but I relate more to the emotional vulnerability in his voice. This is the type of music I play when I want to take a moment to be contemplative and melancholic.

7. Fanfare by Dorian Electra

I absolutely love Dorian Electra and was lucky enough to attend two concerts from the Fanfare World Tour (plus their after-parties). At the second one, I actually met them, and it was honestly one of the best moments of my life. Dorian is such a nice person, really. I told them how much I loved the Idolize remix that Count Baldor produced for the Brazilian after-party, and they sent him a video of me asking for it to be released lol (spoiler: it was never officially released). Anyway, this post isn’t about how I met Dorian Electra - it’s about Fanfare. I just love the concept, since parasocial relationships really fascinate me, and I find the visual identity of this era incredibly consistent and compelling.

8. Live Through This by Hole

Yeah, I know, Courtney Love can be awful, but Hole’s sound is irresistible, and her screams are pure therapy. I was deep into grunge and riot grrrl as a teen, so of course I love this album. It fills me with righteous, chaotic female rage - which is good.

9. Certa Manhã Acordei de Sonhos Intranquilos by Otto

Who knew Otto getting cheated on by Alessandra Negrini would lead to one of my favorite albums? Kafka references + Brazilian rhythms = eargasm. I must say that Crua is absolutely one of my all-time favorite songs.

10. Almost Here by The Academy Is...

I love pop‑punk, so naturally, I love this album. It’s pure nostalgia - I can’t even explain it. It takes me back to better days, when I was still figuring myself out but somehow happier. Also, I might be slightly obsessed with William Beckett (you can probably tell from my profile picture).

Is it just me or...

Mar. 6th, 2026 12:48 pm
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Today, I received in the snail mail, a single sheet of paper telling me my tax return had been filed electronically. WTF? Stamps aren't free or cheap. Email works a lot faster. Holy crap.

A long while back, they served fried okra on the dinner buffet and it was fabulous. I bought extra and froze it then heated it up in the air fryer. It was better than fabulous. I love fried okra but I hate cutting it, breading it and frying it. So, on a whim, I asked the food and bev people if I could buy a batch of fried okra. I didn't care when, I didn't care how much. They said 'sure' just let us know when you are ready. Then I went on Wegovy and I wanted to wait a bit to see how that would go.

Finally, last week, I emailed that I was ready. They said $15 for 3 lbs. I said great. And today they made it happen. 6 gynormous bags of fried okra. For $15!!!

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I put 5 in the freezer and pulled out 3 handfuls to crisp up for lunch. 2 would have been plenty. But so yum.

What a happy camper am I???!!!!

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Mar. 6th, 2026 09:43 pm
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Иногда бывают дни как сегодня: я могу смотреть какие-то короткие видео то там то сям, смотреть фотографии, что-то читать, например, что вот учёные что-то открыли и тд и у меня такое тепло и мысль появляется, что вот сколько классных, умных, замечательных людей. Они такие молодцы!

А потом я, конечо, возвращаюсь к себе и такой.. ну я какая-то не ошибка, но бессмысленность что-ли. Я не делаю ничего общественно полезного, просто полезного. Я не знаю даже что я хочу поесть, куда сходить, что увидеть. Как и где прожить. Чем заниматься, конечно тоже!

Надо что-то делать! Что? Кому? Зачем? Не знаю. Например, мне вот здесь не нравится, но я ничего не предпринимаю, я не хочу, мне сама мысль противна, что нужно что-то делать, думать как-то. А, зато, есть у меня приятель, который с семьей, с двумя детьми, взял и с балкан в Бразилию переехал. С ума сойти же!

Бразилия далеко. Связей минимум. Как, что? Ну, я его особо не спрашивал, наверное он там нашёл какие-то варианты. Вот это я понимаю! А я уже сам не могу сдвинуться с места. Только умирать осталось, разве что.

Ещё, конечно, руки опускаются от понимания что везде какая-то хрень и разницы не так уж много, всё что представлялось было лишь фантазией. Хотя и тут, конечно, есть разницы между разными вариантами, но глобально какая-то обречённость.

Well, now that's lucky

Mar. 6th, 2026 08:57 am
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I noticed this morning that my bone conducting headphones for swimming had the beginning of a life ending split where the mechanics' house begins. They still work but it looks like their future is not certain. So, while I swam, I dreamed of getting the next iteration which can be used on land and sea and has Bluetooth. I figured I'd gorilla tape these for insurance and then contemplate the upgrade.

But, first, when I got home I checked the company website to see what their support looks like. I bought them from Amazon so I went to get the date and order number. July 14, 2024. Oh! They have a 2 year warranty. Well, all right then. No upgrade for me. I filled out their form and got an email and now wait for instructions. Depending on their process I might still get that upgrade.

Also while swimming, I crafted a tactful email to the CPA that asked WHEN THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO FILE MY RETURN???? I've been logging onto my IRS account every day looking ... except, it turns out, I was looking in the wrong place. Before I sent that email, I found the right place and discovered that, in fact, they did file it and the IRS has it and all is cool. So whew. Also the IRS now, finally, has a 'send me an email when stuff happens' option. And one for refund info. Both are opt out but now I've opted in. So I wait.

I got a nice text from the vet last night asking me about Biggie since he had two vaccinations yesterday. His only issue now is attitude.

Of course the water fountain has now started fountaining again. The new one arrives today. I may just return it.

I need some yogurt. And salt and sugar. So, I'm thinking Safeway this morning.

And that's about it for plans. I think I'll go find the gorilla tape as an interim fix for the headphones and then get dressed.

The Friday Five for 6 March 2026

Mar. 6th, 2026 11:53 am
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This week I'm doing The Friday Five!

These questions were suggested by
[personal profile] dray.

1. Do you know of any other words for snow? What's your favourite and why?

Not in English. Off the top of my head, I can mention neve (Portuguese), Schnee (German), neu (Catalan), and nieve (Spanish). My favourite is Schnee because it sounds very different from the others (and I also like the /ʃ/ sound).

2. What's your ideal temperature range for winter?

Something between 10°C and 20°C.

3. Favourite winter activity? What about it makes it your favourite?

In Brazil, winter isn’t that different from the other seasons (at least not where I was born), so I don’t really do any special winter activities there. In Germany, I like to stay indoors lol. That’s my favourite thing to do because I love staying in bed with something warm to drink, keeping as far away from the cold wind as possible.

4. What are three things you can't do without when winter arrives?

In Brazil: a warm pullover, chapstick, and a soft blanket.
In Germany: thermal clothes, chapstick, and a heater.

5. Do you have favourite winter holiday activities?

We don't have winter holidays in Brazil. In Germany, I enjoyed doing an advent calendar with my housemates.

New Worlds: Gardens and Parks

Mar. 6th, 2026 09:04 am
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I've been trying for some time now to get a landscaper not to ghost me, so we can redo the front and back yards of my house.

Am I trying to hire a contractor, or an artist?

Yes. Both. Year Nine's discussion of how we've reshaped the land focused entirely on utilitarian aspects: draining wetlands, filling in shorelines, flattening land for agriculture and roads. We entirely skipped over the aesthetic angle -- but that matters, too! The land and what grows atop it can become a medium for art.

A fairly elite art, though. At its core, landscaping for the purpose of a garden or a park is about setting aside ground that could have been productive and using it for pleasure instead. Not to say that there can't be some overlap; vegetable gardens can be attractive, and parks might play home to game animals that will later grace the dinner table. But there's a sort of conspicuous consumption in saying, not only do I have land, but I have enough of it to devote some to aesthetic enjoyment over survival.

We don't know what the earliest gardens were like, but we know they've been with us probably about as long as stratified society has been, if not longer. The Hanging Gardens of Babylon (named for their tiered structure) were one of the Seven Wonders of the Ancient World, and those -- if they ever existed -- were a continuation of a well-documented Assyrian tradition of royal gardens, which included hydraulic engineering to supply them with water. So this was not a new art.

But when did it become an art? I'm not entirely sure. The boundary is fuzzy, of course; gardens can exist without being included in the discourse around Proper Art. (As we saw in Year Eight, with the shift toward recognizing textiles as a possible form of fine art.) Europe didn't really elevate gardens to that stature until the sixteenth century, as part of the Renaissance return to classical ideals. The earliest Chinese book I've been able to find on the aesthetics of gardening, as opposed to botanical studies of plants, is from the seventeenth century, but it wouldn't surprise me if there were earlier works. I think that when you start getting specific aesthetic movements and individual designers famous for their work, you're in the realm of Art instead of a functional thing that can also be pretty; I just don't know when that began.

There definitely are aesthetic movements, though! In particular, gardens-as-art swing between the poles of "nature in her most idealized form" and "intentionally artificial." Many Japanese gardens exemplify the former, while European gardens laid out in complex geometric beds demonstrate the latter. It's not entirely a regional differentiation, though; Japanese dry ("Zen") gardens, with their carefully raked seas of gravel, are obviously not trying to look natural, and Europeans have enjoyed a good meadow-style garden, too.

This is partly a question of how you're supposed to interact with these spaces. Some -- including many of those Japanese examples, dry or otherwise -- are meant to be viewed from the outside, e.g. while sitting on a veranda or looking down on it from an upstairs window. Others are meant to be walked through, so they're designed with an eye toward what new images will greet you as you follow a path or come round a corner. Meanwhile, hedge mazes may purposefully try to confuse you, which means they benefit from walls of greenery as close to identical as you can get them -- until you arrive at the center or some other node, where the intentional monotony breaks.

In pursuit of these effects, a garden can incorporate other forms of art and technology. Hydraulics may play a role not only in irrigating the garden, but in fueling fountains, waterfalls, artificial streams, and the like, which in turn may host fish, turtles, and other inhabitants. Architecture provides bridges over wet or dry courses and structures like walls, gazebos, arches, arbors, bowers, pergolas, and trellises, often supporting climbing plants. Statuary very commonly appears in pleasing spots; paintings are less common, since the weather will damage them faster, but mosaics work very well.

But the centerpiece is usually the plants themselves. As with zoos (Year Four) and the "cabinet of curiosities"-style museums (Year Nine), one purpose of a garden may be to show off plants and trees from far-distant lands, delighting the eye and possibly the nose with unfamiliar wonders. The earliest greenhouses seem to have been built to grow vegetables out of season, but later ones saw great use for cultivating tropical plants far outside their usual climes -- especially once we figured out how to heat them reliably, circa the seventeenth century. In other cases, the appeal comes from carefully pruning the plants to a desired shape, whether that's arching gracefully over a path or full-on sculpture into the shapes of animals or mythological figures.

One particularly clever trick involves accounting for the changing conditions inherent to an art based in nature. Many gardens go dead and boring in the winter -- or in the summer, if you're in a climate where rain only comes in the winter -- but a skilled designer can create a "four seasons" garden that offers shifting sources of interest throughout the year. Similarly, they may use a combination of artificial lighting and night-blooming flowers to create a space whose experience is very different at night than during the day.

And gardens can even serve an intellectual purpose! Like a museum, its displays may be educational; you see this in botanical gardens and arboreta, with their signs identifying plants and perhaps telling you something about them. Many scholars over the centuries have also used gardens as the site of their experiments, studying their materials and tweaking how to best care for them. But this doesn't stop with plain science, either. We often refer to dry rock gardens as "Zen gardens" because of their role in encouraging meditative contemplation, and actually, it goes deeper than that: the design of such a garden is often steeped in symbolism, with rocks representing mountains in general or specific important peaks. I don't actually know, but I readily assume, that somebody in early modern Europe probably created a garden full of coded alchemical references. The design of the place can be as much a tool for the mind as it is a pleasure for the senses.

Which brings them back around to a functional purpose, I suppose. Gardens very much straddle the line between aesthetics and pragmatism!

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Mar. 5th, 2026 08:59 pm
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I have like three things to do because I procrastinated, shouldn't take more than about thirty minutes total. Then? I'm going to bed!! I killed my "slowly getting sleep schedule in order" streak but I'm getting back on track tonight, babies B)

Is Murphy's Law ruling my life?

Mar. 5th, 2026 11:40 pm
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This really isn't my week. After the tutoring fiasco, I got a fine for taking the wrong train. I had to pay 27.520 forints for a new ticket + the fine, which is about 72 euros aaaaaaaaaaaaa. I almost cried when I saw the amount, but refrained myself from doing so because there were two other people next to me (including a cute guy who acted as my interpreter during the exchange with the inspector).
 
The good news is that a great internship position for my area has just become available. There are buses near the workplace that go to my uni and my home, the pay is reasonable, and I would only have to work 12 hours a week (4 hours on 3 days). I'm going to send my CV today.
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There are only three weeks left until the Equinox (actually a little less than that now). I can't believe the change in the weather. There are some vestiges of snow, but it's mostly melted or washed away. 

The downside is the rain. We are getting quite the soaking. It isn't even that warm right now. It has been rain and temps in the 40s for a few days now. However that will change next week. The weather is going up to the 60s and even the low 70s - with sunshine! I could not be more psyched for that. I hope this spring-like weather remains for spring. 

I am so exhausted today. I had a bad night's sleep. Then I had PT early in the morning. Then I had meetings at work. Then I had a dentist appointment. I hadn't worked out yet, but I hadn't used up the PTO I took for today, so I worked out and had my lunch. Then I had two more meetings. I need a nap. I am glad I don't have rehearsal tonight.

I have a little more than a week to be off book for Act 1. Scene 1 is fine. Scene 2 is shaky. I still struggle with Act 2. I know I should practice more. I'm lazy.

I should have a good weekend coming up. I will have horses on Saturday and rehearsal on Sunday. It's too bad the day that's sunny and in the 60s will be Sunday when I'm inside all afternoon for rehearsal. 

Never mind. I just checked the weather. Sunday is in the 60s, but raining. Saturday is in the 50s and not sunny, but cloudy. I can handle that. Unfortunately the warm sunny days are during the week! 

We also spring forward on Sunday. I am finished ranting about that. I say the same thing every year. It's too soon. End of story.

We just finalized our plan for Easter. I am really looking forward to it. We are going to have quite a Bacchanalian weekend. I was thinking of hosting it myself, especially because Sian was considering coming for the weekend, but it’s the weekend before my play opens and I am not sure I want the stress. I am not encouraging Sian to visit either.

Earlier this week I was relieved of the duty because Bob and Susan are coming for Easter weekend with Malcom, Steffanie, and Elle. They want to have brunch with us at The Peninsula. That should be cool. The only thing is they said nothing about whether or not my family is invited. I know Mom’s feelings would be hurt if they didn’t invite her. But I am sure they probably worry if they invite her, they will need to invite my whole family. I didn’t want to break the news to her that we had alternate plans for Easter. We had no idea what my brother was doing and if those plans would include her. 

But then yesterday Erik and Janeth said they were going to do a pig roast the day before Easter. My family will all go to that. I am so glad Erik is doing something that weekend so she doesn’t feel left out of everyone’s festivities. She has one family occasion to go to. Now Kevin and I have two family occasions and we will enjoy gorging ourselves all weekend. 

It has been over a year since we saw Kevin’s family. So glad we will have Easter. (Or will it be considered a Passover brunch? It certainly won’t be kosher.)

I need a nap! I should try to get to bed early tonight.  

Shot day

Mar. 5th, 2026 08:52 am
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On Thursdays, I play volleyball, pick up and deliver the Timber Ridge Times and give myself a shot. All before 9. But today there is no Timber Ridge Times so my schedule is already fubared. But, now I'm caught up.

Yesterday I spent the day inside my apartment seeing no one after we got home from the vet's. Probably today I will do the same. I did get the sleeves on my new jacket shortened and I started a new yarn project which I may or may not continue. And I started a new book by a favorite author which is so far a disappointment.

The cats' water fountain quit fountaining. I'm ready for a new/different one anyway so it works out fine.

I got offered a job. Legit pay job. The company that makes the financial software I use, wants to hire me. Part time for kind of customer service. I appreciate the offer but I just can't squeeze it into my schedule. My finances are now so dirt simple, I really only use their software to collect the data which, honestly, I could do manually nearly as easily.

I just cut off all my fingernails. It always makes me feel like I should donate them to some forensic endeavor. Probably I'm just watching too much crime TV or reading too many crime books.

Somehow my kitchen has gotten itself into a mess. So first I'm going to get dressed and then I'm going to clean it up. And then I'm going to ... ahhhh the joy of retirement.

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Mar. 4th, 2026 08:59 pm
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Wip Wednesday! Probably because I was so late last week, I didn't get any prompts. So, I figured I'd just toss up something I'm working on, to keep things rolling. I flipped through a few options and decided on the escape-fic, which I'm again posting all I've written of so far. I'm close to an ending, I can feel it...

Read more... )

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Mar. 4th, 2026 08:38 pm
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Recently the toilet has been running and leaking. I have dealt with this before in another house. You need to replace the chain and flapper. Of course, the system was attached differently from the one I'd done before. Instead of just hooking on to another part, this was slipped over an end piece and you had to lift it over. I learned that on Youtube.I didn't have the hand strength to do that so I had to get out TOOLS. A box cutter, pliers, etc and so on. Finally got the old piece off and went to the store to get a new one.

I chose one, I do want to mention that I have to get on my knees to turn the water on and off, just to mention it. So it's installed and the noisy toilet is silent. I still have to shorten the chain to make it perfect, it's sort of jerryrigged now, and that will be fixed in the near future.

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Mar. 4th, 2026 03:01 pm
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I heard the terrible news about [personal profile] minoanmiss last night, and I want to punch entropy in its face about it. But entropy doesn’t have a face, so we’re all kinda screwed. My heart goes out to her wonderful loved ones, and to the neighbors who her life had touched for the better. I hope she gets to donate her organs to others to live on, especially as doing so will hopefully piss off her parents (who richly deserve such) one last time.


I have been orbitally bombarding the ulcer with famotidine, Omeprazole, and trying to let go of stress once an hour. It seems to be doing some good? And I found some perfume samples on clearance from the December holidays at CVS, so I am also scent stimming intermittently.

I have a tiny, mild headache right now, so I’m studying for the jurisprudence exam and getting ready to take the test and do taxes tomorrow.

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