What's wrong with me???!!!
Mar. 15th, 2003 10:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zimon66Yesterday all dark and strange, today feeling like a "non-entity" - I don't feel real.
Want to say it's the "ghost feeling" I had awhile back and recorded here in my LJ, but this is a little different - it's very simular to that feeling. What makes it different, it's what the unicorn in Peter S. Beagle's "Last Unicorn" went through - people would look at her and see not a unicorn but a regular everyday horse, they couldn't see her for what she really was. When captured by and displayed by a traveling carnival, the old woman that ran it could see the unicorn, but knowing the majority of visiters wouldn't she used magic to make it so they would see the unicorn or rather a false image of one. Pretty depressing thing to read, people so "blind" they can't see the real wonder/truth before them. The other animals in the "Creatures of the Night Brought Before the Light" display were all fakes, regular animals with magically created false images to make them look like mythical creatures - the unicorn and a harpy were the only real myths in the display and they had to be "coated" with a false image to be seen as mythical.
That's how I feel right now, people look at me and don't see the real me.
I'm not a regular animal - nor will I slap on a coat of magic to be seen for what I really am!!!
If the "blind" can't open their eyes and see the real me, that's their problem and it's not my job to fix their sight.
Want to say it's the "ghost feeling" I had awhile back and recorded here in my LJ, but this is a little different - it's very simular to that feeling. What makes it different, it's what the unicorn in Peter S. Beagle's "Last Unicorn" went through - people would look at her and see not a unicorn but a regular everyday horse, they couldn't see her for what she really was. When captured by and displayed by a traveling carnival, the old woman that ran it could see the unicorn, but knowing the majority of visiters wouldn't she used magic to make it so they would see the unicorn or rather a false image of one. Pretty depressing thing to read, people so "blind" they can't see the real wonder/truth before them. The other animals in the "Creatures of the Night Brought Before the Light" display were all fakes, regular animals with magically created false images to make them look like mythical creatures - the unicorn and a harpy were the only real myths in the display and they had to be "coated" with a false image to be seen as mythical.
That's how I feel right now, people look at me and don't see the real me.
I'm not a regular animal - nor will I slap on a coat of magic to be seen for what I really am!!!
If the "blind" can't open their eyes and see the real me, that's their problem and it's not my job to fix their sight.
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Date: Mar. 17th, 2003 03:55 am (UTC)It's OK Lin-Z
Date: Mar. 17th, 2003 10:00 pm (UTC)I'm only upset at you-know-who for being a snoop and rubbing his find into my face.
I fixed my LJ so people's names show up if they do comments and I made it VERY clear to him to leave me alone!!!
Hell, he's probably been reading my LJ which I don't care - it's his posting in it I don't want and he knows better than to go posting the link publicly again unless he enjoys looking like a Grade A Fool
In a world of Sancho's...
Date: Mar. 18th, 2003 11:23 am (UTC)we're mythic creatures as far as our Avatars go, living in a world of collective unconsciousness, 2000+ years of people saying "You can't possibly exist!" I hate to bust the collective bubble, but we do have some lovely consolation prizes for you all*LOL*
As painful as it is, Hon, we all go through that feeling, of being a ghost, at least as far as being trapped here, between worlds. We make the best of it, we cope, grit our teeth and try to remind people of what its like to Dream as Children do*Big Hugs*