Pointless

[zimon66]

Basically, that's how kitsune more or less makes me feel - been dealing with this off and on for so long. Right now, I want it over and done with between us.

Sent off an email about how it all makes me feel, they way he's so damn flip with my feelings - I don't expect a reply back. He does that, leaves me hanging unless I say something - not going to this time, why should I? I don't matter to him at all.

Know all too well what I was getting into, thought I could handle it - he doesn't feel the same way about me as I do him, really thought I could handle it - I've got enough love for the both of us so it'll be OK - it's not OK, it's never been OK.

Can't do the happiness sacrifice jazz without being a martyr, thought I could but I can't it's too hard.

Coming off like some sort of psycho bitch - I'm not. It's rare that I'll let anybody get close, that'll I open up and trust.

Shouldn't have done it with him - all I got was scars.

Funny thing is, I could easily get a guy, but I don't want just any guy - which is why I haven't dated for a long time and am still single at my age.

I'll get over this, made of strong stuff - may hurt for a long while but it won't kill me.

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Pointless

[jackalsjourney.livejournal.com]

:( I'm truly sorry it happened like that, Bud, but its not always gonna end with you getting hurt, Dude...I'm three years older than you and still single, like you, trust is really hard for me, but I'm not the type to quit (too stupid, maybe*LOL*) and I don't think you are either...any time you wanna talk or vent, 'sall good. Be safe, Amiga

Re: Pointless

[zimon66]

Thanx, I'll be fine:)