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Feb. 16th, 2003 06:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zimon66Had to come home early from work on Thurday thanx to the headache from hell which I brought on to myself by 1)getting very little sleep the night before and 2) eating for dinner mostly chocolate. Went and did the same thing to myself on Halloween night, you'd think I'd learn my lesson but nnnnnnoooooo.
Anyway, was bed-ridden the rest of the day and partly into the night. Probably just as well since it makes for a better excuse than "I had work" to explain why I wasn't at the Big Local Goth Night. Don't do well in big crowds, music turned-up too loud sets me on edge, I don't drink or smoke, not much of a dancer, and not knowing anybody it wouldn't have been much fun for me - I've tried clubs in the past and it's almost always not a good experience - I go with high hopes and come home wondering why the hell I went in the first place. It's not that it's a "bad" experience, just when you try to interact with people who have little or no interest in having a conversation, maybe the setting was all wrong for that, I did try to meet others when I first moved here "cold" and in a club instead of somewhere else. Plus being a lousy dancer on top of that, well I tried (LOL). Wish clubs could be like what you see in some movies, one main area for all the dancing and noise and a seperate "quiet spot" were people can sit, relax, and talk (actual talking not shouting over the background into somebody's ear) that isn't the bathroom or the parking lot!!! Smaller quiet non-club setting back then it probably would have worked out better for me *shrugs*
Ah well, there's the weekly "coffee meets" which sound just perfect for me - the problem is work, I'd either get off too late to go or would have to leave the meet early because of work in the morning. I've been such a physical recluse for so long....wait a minute, why do I want to change that? Interacting online only is a good thing.....maybe it's because of the Kitsune *thoughtful for a minute* Anyway, thankfully, I'll be able to FINALLY go to one on the 26th (hopefully the weather won't decide to be nasty). If things work out OK maybe I could try hosting a weekend morning get-together once or twice a month for people sorta like me in sorta the same boat (LOL) at Boarders. Or maybe I'm being ridiculas - ah nuts Z, you did want to open up in this journal like you've seen others do in theirs. Ok, enough of this subject for awhile.
Happier note - dropped the bombshell on Kitsune and said those 3 little words. He handled it well or as near as I could tell since we live in different states and our only communication so far has been by email. I'm glad to have FINALLY said it after so many months of dropping major hints Helen Kellor could see. Time well tell what'll happen in the future. Thanx to everyone who read that previous entry on this subject and felt sympathy for me.
Got to order comics - *runs happily off to do that*
Anyway, was bed-ridden the rest of the day and partly into the night. Probably just as well since it makes for a better excuse than "I had work" to explain why I wasn't at the Big Local Goth Night. Don't do well in big crowds, music turned-up too loud sets me on edge, I don't drink or smoke, not much of a dancer, and not knowing anybody it wouldn't have been much fun for me - I've tried clubs in the past and it's almost always not a good experience - I go with high hopes and come home wondering why the hell I went in the first place. It's not that it's a "bad" experience, just when you try to interact with people who have little or no interest in having a conversation, maybe the setting was all wrong for that, I did try to meet others when I first moved here "cold" and in a club instead of somewhere else. Plus being a lousy dancer on top of that, well I tried (LOL). Wish clubs could be like what you see in some movies, one main area for all the dancing and noise and a seperate "quiet spot" were people can sit, relax, and talk (actual talking not shouting over the background into somebody's ear) that isn't the bathroom or the parking lot!!! Smaller quiet non-club setting back then it probably would have worked out better for me *shrugs*
Ah well, there's the weekly "coffee meets" which sound just perfect for me - the problem is work, I'd either get off too late to go or would have to leave the meet early because of work in the morning. I've been such a physical recluse for so long....wait a minute, why do I want to change that? Interacting online only is a good thing.....maybe it's because of the Kitsune *thoughtful for a minute* Anyway, thankfully, I'll be able to FINALLY go to one on the 26th (hopefully the weather won't decide to be nasty). If things work out OK maybe I could try hosting a weekend morning get-together once or twice a month for people sorta like me in sorta the same boat (LOL) at Boarders. Or maybe I'm being ridiculas - ah nuts Z, you did want to open up in this journal like you've seen others do in theirs. Ok, enough of this subject for awhile.
Happier note - dropped the bombshell on Kitsune and said those 3 little words. He handled it well or as near as I could tell since we live in different states and our only communication so far has been by email. I'm glad to have FINALLY said it after so many months of dropping major hints Helen Kellor could see. Time well tell what'll happen in the future. Thanx to everyone who read that previous entry on this subject and felt sympathy for me.
Got to order comics - *runs happily off to do that*
