Today ends on a sour note!!!

[zimon66]

1) Gremlins are currently running amuck in LJ and some of my icon pics just flat-out don't work and trying to delete and re-upload them is also not working. One brightspot in this, gives me an excuse to use the icon of a chainsaw welding Luke Valentine going after Alucard that was created by my request by kyoryokunazo who's gotten Hellsing Icon Happy - LOL!!!

2) "LJ Drama" - http://ljdrama.org/ - is no more:( - unless it's a April Fool's joke and if that's the case it's NOT funny at all period!!!

3) Let somebody get my hopes up again) and of course it leads to disappointment (again).

4) Am tired of people implying what fun we'll have together and then wind-up doing it by myself.

5) If you want to be entertained 24/7 - get out the phonebook, go to the yellow pages and find yourself a fricking clown to hire!!!

6) In the previous post&comments, have a idea to "RPG for One", but am having second thoughts on this because it's so damn sad - suppose to play with other people, not by yourself. However, if I don't try this then what other chance will I have to RPG Luke Valentine and this great idea on bringing him back from the dead?

7) There's an animal deep inside, as usually it wants out and as usually it can't - hate feeling the frustration. This is one reason why I want to do the "RPG for One" it's a means of acting out.

I've been numerous times in the past emotionally jerked around and as a result am hyper-sensitive - if I feel that I am ever so slighty being "used" I can and do react and I am reacting right now!!!

Shouldn't have to juggle kittens to get attention from others - but sometimes that's how it feels - I'm only interesting if I am interesting.

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[somnambulisa.livejournal.com]

7. I know the feeling (that's what the poem was about.. writing it helped ease the feeling)

[q-slash.livejournal.com]

*blinks*

I cant help but feel that some of this is directed to me. It prolly isn't but I'm playing safe^^

If I seem to be ignoring you, I don't mean to be at all, I just have a very busy life, and a very, irritatingly social family. ><

My life in a nutshell
School 6:30-3 (that includes waking up, getting ready, and bussing home)
babysit (3-7pm)
Me time (7- 7:45)
Dinner (7:45 till 9)
More me time (9-10)...if I don't shower.

Course, I sneek online at school and while babysitting^^

[zimon66]

I'm screaming at the World, was already seething for 48 hours and felt the need for a good rant. Meant to vent this jazz a few times before but put it off (big mistake).

Fine now but LJ is still screwing with my some of my icon pics:(

Dear Gods almost 2 hours for dinner??!! Your family is that social??!! - please don't tell me you guys do potato-sack races in the backyard - LOL!!!

[q-slash.livejournal.com]

that includes tv time...
IE amarican Idol, survivor, SVU, Without a trace (on various days)

[zimon66]

What about the weekends - must be a chunk of free time in there somewhere.

[q-slash.livejournal.com]

Some. AFTER cleaning. By then, I'm so irritated with gestapo nuroticly clean sister I wanna leave the house.