Nope, not dead yet.
Mar. 26th, 2005 01:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zimon66Went offline for a few days again however it wasn't because of the vampire couch (thanx to all for concerns about me and the evil piece of furniture in the previous post), but something far more important.
Had a falling out recently with someone who needed to understand that "friend doesn't mean toy". This isn't something that happened overnight, been going on for a number of months now.
I tried to talk things over a few times but I wasn't being listen to nor taken seriously - my feelings didn't seem to matter at all.
So, said something final on Monday night but also made the offer of a second chance of friendship (with the stipualtion of not trying not to repeat previous treatment of me) but it was up to her to decide and to take as much time to mull it over.
Thought if I stayed offline, would make it easier for her to think.
But it looks like that was pointless to do - I probably should have put down a time limit for the decision, but no I had to be "Stupid nice person sporting faith that it would all be OK".
Or maybe once again I'm not being listen to nor taken seriously.......or maybe my friendship really didn't matter after all.
Throwing away a friendship because of some no-talent and his phony bunch - smart move not.
At least I've gotten over most of the hurt, anger, and feeling used - still miss her but that's receeding.
Maybe she'll read this post........or maybe not.
I should quit caring about this.
Had a falling out recently with someone who needed to understand that "friend doesn't mean toy". This isn't something that happened overnight, been going on for a number of months now.
I tried to talk things over a few times but I wasn't being listen to nor taken seriously - my feelings didn't seem to matter at all.
So, said something final on Monday night but also made the offer of a second chance of friendship (with the stipualtion of not trying not to repeat previous treatment of me) but it was up to her to decide and to take as much time to mull it over.
Thought if I stayed offline, would make it easier for her to think.
But it looks like that was pointless to do - I probably should have put down a time limit for the decision, but no I had to be "Stupid nice person sporting faith that it would all be OK".
Or maybe once again I'm not being listen to nor taken seriously.......or maybe my friendship really didn't matter after all.
Throwing away a friendship because of some no-talent and his phony bunch - smart move not.
At least I've gotten over most of the hurt, anger, and feeling used - still miss her but that's receeding.
Maybe she'll read this post........or maybe not.
I should quit caring about this.
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Date: Mar. 26th, 2005 10:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 07:50 am (UTC)Going through a grieving process of sorts, I'll be fine. Painful as this is, was nothing like what I went through with that online relationship with some guy, his insensitivity struck to the very core.
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Date: Mar. 26th, 2005 04:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 08:01 am (UTC)On a different note, I'm going to die laughing if your Rip X Luke fanfic has anymore simiularities to mine.
Thought I was being so damn original having her find him in the lab and making all the moves - LOL!!!
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Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 05:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC)Speaking of fanfics, need to give you a couple of Luke Gets Sex Stories - LOL!!!
http://www.livejournal.com/community/hellsing/260829.html?#cutid1
http://www.livejournal.com/community/hellsing/258566.html
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Date: Mar. 28th, 2005 02:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 26th, 2005 05:30 pm (UTC)you will find newer better friends esp since you are a good person :D
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Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 08:02 am (UTC)I've learned that...
Date: Mar. 26th, 2005 09:14 pm (UTC)Hope you can find more friends that help you to get over the rough spots in RL.
Hang in there and take care!
Good to see your LJ back. I've missed your posts:)
Re: I've learned that...
Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 07:54 am (UTC)Can't believe you read my posts, they're so damn boring. Sometimes I'm tempted to makeup a wild sex story with aliens - LOL!!!
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Date: Mar. 26th, 2005 11:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 07:42 am (UTC)We NEED to get on the IM one of these weekends and try rpging.
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Date: Mar. 27th, 2005 05:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 28th, 2005 02:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Mar. 28th, 2005 02:56 am (UTC)