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May. 1st, 2003 12:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zimon66No matter how bad it gets, I still love Kitsune - yet I wish there was a way to end it, to cut out my heart and throw it into the deep freeze and stop the pain.
I'm not the type to love just anybody - to me it's something very special you don't do it with just anybody and as a result in my almost 37 years can count on one hand with some fingers missing the guys I truly loved.
So it's the real thing when I tell someone I love them, but thanks to the majority being so bloody flip with this most important of emotions that when most people get the real thing they don't realize what it is that they have.
It's not fair - I know love is so precious and it's to be given to someone special, not tossed out like breadcrumbs into a fish pond, so I'm very careful with it and treat it with a great deal of respect. Meanwhile the majority squander it left and right, no thought or regard about sucking all the meaning out of it for whatever selfish purpose until it's about as special as a toaster, just something to be used.
So why am I the one who's being punished?
I'm not the type to love just anybody - to me it's something very special you don't do it with just anybody and as a result in my almost 37 years can count on one hand with some fingers missing the guys I truly loved.
So it's the real thing when I tell someone I love them, but thanks to the majority being so bloody flip with this most important of emotions that when most people get the real thing they don't realize what it is that they have.
It's not fair - I know love is so precious and it's to be given to someone special, not tossed out like breadcrumbs into a fish pond, so I'm very careful with it and treat it with a great deal of respect. Meanwhile the majority squander it left and right, no thought or regard about sucking all the meaning out of it for whatever selfish purpose until it's about as special as a toaster, just something to be used.
So why am I the one who's being punished?
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Date: May. 1st, 2003 08:24 am (UTC)Because youre one of those people who are strong enough to feel it. Most of the others are afraid of their own feelings or hide because they dont want to be the ones being hurt.
Although youre feeling awfully bad right now, keep this precious gift of love alive.
You can either pity or hate the people who dont understand love in its whole, but it doesnt matter to them anyway... they just keep on with their lives, living their way of "love".
Everything what matters is in your heart. Being rejected is a hard thing, I know, but at least you say, that you loved, and thats what count, right?
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Date: May. 2nd, 2003 01:36 am (UTC)I haven't been rejected so far and feel it won't happen, but I have no real idea of where this is all going - time will tell.
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Date: May. 3rd, 2003 01:52 am (UTC)