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[zimon66]

It's rare when I'll trust somebody enough with my deepest feelings - what a minute, I never trusted anybody enough to do that.

Which is probably why I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face feeling hurt and stupid. I can go on and on about the "hurt and stupid", but what lies behind it.......all I can do is beat around the bush. Why? - to spare someone else's feelings.

So here I am putting myself thru a private Hell because I really care about somebody to avoid putting them on the spot.

Love isn't easy, it NEVER is.

Getting closure, also next to impossible.

Might as well have asked for the Holy Grail, would have been far easier to get.

If this was a Hollywood movie, everything would be resolved in a timely fashion and there'd be a happy ending for everyone involved.

This isn't a movie, it's Reality!!!

Comments

[sublime8ball.livejournal.com]

I gave up trusting people with those things long ago. I am not a better person because of it. To open yourself up emotionally is to risk pain. Our options are: 1)to remain closed to pain and disappointment, at the same time remaining closed to joy and happiness, or 2)open ourselves up to everything and accept what the world can bring to our lives... or beat us with.

Closure is something most people can attain as long as there are no reminders of the "missing person". This is rare, so indeed. Closure is next to impossible, unless you really want to remove all reminders of that person. I have been told in the past that the best hing to do is remove these items and take the last of them, usually a picture, to someplace like a train track - tear it into little pieces and as the train passes, drop it into the wind created by the train. As it is blown to and fro, tell yourself that this is now out of your life. While not immediate, the relief will come.

[shadowfireraven.livejournal.com]

that blows... it sucks not being able to confide in someone